My Mother-in-law is here. She hasn't lost too much weight since the last time I saw her, and although I don't want her to be fat - obviously, I think its great she is losing weight. The reason why I'm happy she hasn't lost too much is because of selfish reasons really. I don't want to be 'the fat one' anymore. I don't want to be the last one to lose weight, the one thats always fat.

What really annoys me more than anything is my hubby went and told her I was on a diet! Before she said whether she noticed I had lost weight. He's really pissed me off. I didn't want anyone to know, because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I feel I have to eat more in front of people in case they start making comments like 'you;re not eating enough' blah de blah blah blah.

So I'm annoyed. I would rather my weight wasn't talked about. I want to tackle it on my own, without looks and comments etc. I don't want my weight loss to be out in the open. I liked it the way it was. Just me and my blog. and the occasional nice comment from the hubby.

I just don't want to TALK about it. I want it to be just me and my thoughts, however lame or silly or outrageous or sensible they might be.

I love my blog.

I don't want to hear 'oh I'm trying to lose weight too. But I'm doing it this way coz I think its better. Its so difficult. I want to eat. I'm hungry. I shouldn't have that. OH NO I ate too much' and all that other crappy annoying rubbish.

I like losing weight alone. Although I'm not completely alone. I have my blog and my readers.

I really hate that my secrets out.