Emotional eating is just one of the worst habits you can ever have. Its so difficult not to eat when you feel a certain way.

I watched this today http://news.bbc.co.uk/player/nol/newsid_7220000/newsid_7229300/7229352.stm?bw=bb&mp=wm&news=1&bbcws=1

This disturbed me. Mainly because she said that being thin wasn't worth it and all the reasons she gave (even the bingo wings) are all the same reasons why being fat isn't worth it either.

Not having enough energy, health risks, saggy skin. All you can get from being fat. In fact the saggy skin was from her being fat, not being anorexic.

I'm not saying that anorexia is good. Its not good to starve yourself to near death. But she went through all of that and now she is a healthy weight. I doubt that she wishes she was fat again. Truthfully it was being obese that led her down the slippery slope.

I can greatly understand the want and need to be thin. I want that. I cannot deny it. But at the same time I cannot understand someone who doesn't want to eat ever again. Without food we die. We have to eat.

Honestly, I am worried or feeling 'guilty' that I am eating so little. I am NOT starving. I am not hungry for a great length of time and I don't restrict any food group. So why do I feel guilty. Why do I feel that it is dangerous not to eat, even when I'm not hungry? I'm healthy, I have loads of energy to be doing DIY - and I'm am sleeping well every night. So why do I feel bad?

Its true that other people don't like it when you lose weight. They start getting worried. Its classed as 'dangerous' to skip meals. Plus as a nation we are becoming more and more obese. Maybe this attitude of eating not because you're hungry but because its expected has something to do with it. I've realise with my past eating habits I would say at least 60% of my eating was non-hunger eating. And that is a LOT.

I'm glad I'm losing weight. I don't want to be scared off. Really guilt is the main issue with weight. I feel guilty being fat, I feel guilty losing weight and I'm pretty sure I'll feel guilty when I'm slim. So its pretty much apparent that I need to tackle the guilt issue. Woa, this blogs amazing. Its like having your own psychiatrist. Okay maybe thats going a little too far.... hahaha.